It's already August and I've only written 2 entries in my blog. The first one wasn't even a blog, and the second one is a poem. -sigh- In case you havent noticed, I will be drawing a picture for each one..it helps me practice and makes me stretch my imagination.
This entry is about my disappointment in..my friends.
I turned 20 on the 13th of this month. I didn't do anything to celebrate. 2 of my best friends were on vacation and the last one was out doing whatever. She took me to get ice cream(she didn't pay for it) and then I slept at her house. I had to leave early so she could go work. This is all I did. Literally. I sat around in my room responding to about 50 happy birthday messages on Facebook until 845pm. These are my best friends of 10 years and thats all that happened. No presents, no party. Those things aren't that important to me, mind you, but if I had done this to them, they would've bitched. I guess I just wanted to spend time with someone... Everyone's always too busy when I ask to hang out.. Or worse, we make plans and something comes up. Never for me, it's always them bailing. All of my online friends were excited for me and wanted my birthday to be special, but no one in real life... My boyfriend forgot my birthday completely. He was on a mission, but I'd had hoped he would remember when he got back. I dropped a few hints but... he didn't catch on at all. He was my last hope at something significant happening. I guess it just goes to show that every person in your life is bound to let you down...
I've been taking off days for the past 2 months for this party one of my friends is supposed to be having. She keeps cancelling and rescheduling it though, cutting into my hours for work(which I completely need). I'm to the point where I'm done asking for days off, if I can't make it, that sucks. I don't even wanna talk about how one of my best guy friends has been acting like a complete asshole for the past month and I. am. tired. of it. It's ridiculous, I'm the most reliable person I know. I have accomplished nothing this entire summer. I've just been waiting around on my useless friends. They've had their fun and been out and around, but why have I just been in my house, online? I need new friends, this is pathetic. I just feel like I'm the only person who cares about another's happiness, and I'd like someone to care about mine. The only thing I have left to look forward to is Geekfest 2010 but knowing me, it'll be cancelled or I won't be able to go.
Maybe being born on the 13th is unlucky after all..
This entry is about my disappointment in..my friends.
I turned 20 on the 13th of this month. I didn't do anything to celebrate. 2 of my best friends were on vacation and the last one was out doing whatever. She took me to get ice cream(she didn't pay for it) and then I slept at her house. I had to leave early so she could go work. This is all I did. Literally. I sat around in my room responding to about 50 happy birthday messages on Facebook until 845pm. These are my best friends of 10 years and thats all that happened. No presents, no party. Those things aren't that important to me, mind you, but if I had done this to them, they would've bitched. I guess I just wanted to spend time with someone... Everyone's always too busy when I ask to hang out.. Or worse, we make plans and something comes up. Never for me, it's always them bailing. All of my online friends were excited for me and wanted my birthday to be special, but no one in real life... My boyfriend forgot my birthday completely. He was on a mission, but I'd had hoped he would remember when he got back. I dropped a few hints but... he didn't catch on at all. He was my last hope at something significant happening. I guess it just goes to show that every person in your life is bound to let you down...
I've been taking off days for the past 2 months for this party one of my friends is supposed to be having. She keeps cancelling and rescheduling it though, cutting into my hours for work(which I completely need). I'm to the point where I'm done asking for days off, if I can't make it, that sucks. I don't even wanna talk about how one of my best guy friends has been acting like a complete asshole for the past month and I. am. tired. of it. It's ridiculous, I'm the most reliable person I know. I have accomplished nothing this entire summer. I've just been waiting around on my useless friends. They've had their fun and been out and around, but why have I just been in my house, online? I need new friends, this is pathetic. I just feel like I'm the only person who cares about another's happiness, and I'd like someone to care about mine. The only thing I have left to look forward to is Geekfest 2010 but knowing me, it'll be cancelled or I won't be able to go.
Maybe being born on the 13th is unlucky after all..
